New Life After That Day

yup yup, its been a long day after my break to write on my journal.
do you remember, several months ago, what have i written about? yup, my writing about " i want A but God give A+" i wrote it on June. 28th 2016, the day that i have to learn how to smile in any circumstances and i know its freaking hard, but in the end i can figure it out, why not? your happiness is determined by yourself only, and life is choice, anyway.

well, i have been there, i have been studying at Parahyangan Law for 1 month. i am happy anyway, fucking happy. i don't know why, i enjoy all about those. its quite easy for me to adapt with new friends, even with new zone also the hectic of schedule. Because, when you choose to be happy and you love what you do, everything seems so easy, believe me.
Juni, 29th 2016.
h+1 after that black day for me.
i decided to be happy.
i declared it, i want to be something in there, even that university had not been my priority, (and now has been my priority)
but God gave it to me, so i wanna make it, cause once God give you something, he has the best plan ever, even if you see in many perspectives.
but deeply in my heart, its so freaking hard. for 1 week i blamed myself, i didn't bottle up my guilty feeling, its so hard but the point is, when i got problem, i have to see nor i must see that those problems make me stronger and maturer. so i tried it, and i won.

you know,
July, 3rd 2016.
i went to church, i prayed to God to give me strength to face it.
i only prayed one thing, to give me strength and teach me how to blessed in every situation in life.
but, one thing happen so weird,
when the priest let us to pray, someone came to me.
i didn't have any idea, i let her came to me then she prayed, i got amazed. how cool it was.

well, the contests of the prayer was quite simple.
she told God that i have to be something in the place which God has prepared for me.
to be better me, to be maturer me, to be blessed and blessing for everyone.
i don't give a cheesy story in here, i just share what i had been through.
and then she hugged me, and i smiled.
one step after i walked away from that room, i sworn to myself.
i have to make it happen and move on from those blame week.
well, i did it. yea! "if you want to, there's always a way even it seems so dark and impossible"

campus life has come!! so excited, new life has begun, yea. make it so memorable.
as usual, i mentioned on my writing, "things happen unexpectedly are the best".

right now, i realized. if i postpone 1 year not to go to collage, maybe i will regret cause i miss 1 chance to meet my rainbows.
ups, rainbows? yep, after a little rain, there's will always a rainbow to give you smile.

rainbow? any display of the colors of the spectrum produced by dispersion of light.
they caught me with their smile, they won to get my attention, ok that's totally ok.
i am getting closer with them, my campus life is like the new page everyday.
they are too pro to write new story everyday.
the story that can make me smile, sad, angry, and all those mix feeling, but i love it, so much.
they are like my mood-booster but sometimes mood-breaker and i cant resist if i love every stories that they made.
someone told us, if we should learn how to dance in the rain,
but me neither, one or maybe all of them met me in the rain and they have been making every moment precious.
oh gosh, this writing is so cheesy for people who read this, maybe.
but i'm totally love them, i'm the happiest girl maybe, i met them, getting close with and having been making same story.
last but not the least,
we still have long journey,
we still have so many books which we should write.
it is the first step of ours to make our dreams come true,
so many doors ahead will be opened by us.
so many ups and downs will be faced by us,
we didn't realize, we are making our memories,
but, no matter what, no matter how dark our day,
let's explore and make it together.
i love you, my rainbows.
catch this letter,
i didn't mention your name in here,
but i knew you know, for whom i wrote this one.
sorry i haven't showed you, the way i love every little things about,
but you can feel it through my actions.
sometimes we didn't say the word 'i love you' but you have to hear and feel it.
love,
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